Here is the second patch of thoughts throughout 2018, the year I launched this blog, by that time, I began to write thoughts in a form of essays.
4 January 2018 12:56 am
It is when you feel your life is falling apart, it is is your most depressing moments, it is when you want to cry but can’t, it is when you want to write down your dark thoughts instead of shedding tears, it is when you want to disappear to just feel relief. It is creativity.
22 January 2018 12:02 am
After she was a master at hiding her sorrows. now everyone close, far, strangers and even virtual friends are asking her if she is okay. It is like the word ‘pain’ is written everywhere on her face and in between her words.
23 January 2018 9:53 am
What would be wrong if the humankind fight for what’s right without labeling themselves? labels separate people, even more, don’t solve any problem they increase it and create a huge gap between different minds.
5 February 2018 9:25 pm
Life goes on.
21 February 2018 1:11 am
It will take time, it will go, but deep inside we are striving for it to be real, to be true, and to be dreamy.
11 March 2018 12:53 am
Hope remains alive despite all the pain it causes.
12 March 2018 1:18 am
Sometimes toxins are not people they are our thoughts, tough experiences make us think that people are all the same, but in fact, there are many authentic ones out there.
22 March 2018 11:01 am
Farewell and death are always stronger than our egos than our dignities, in the end, your tears will fall.
22 March 2018 9:19 pm
I will visit the museum, I shall try to smell your sweet scent in every corner, and ask the cabinet displays if the still keep the reflection of your face.
28 March 2018 4:05 pm
When you are longing for god’s signs and he is actually showing them to you, but you found out that they are not in your favor, they are not supporting your fancy perspectives of how you want things to be. Instead, they are showing you the truth which often hurts, but it is god’s way of telling you to go on.
4 April 2018 4:21 am
Some people are meant to stay, some are meant to leave, people will leave and it might hurt. but back in the day, you made a decision to leave someone’s life, maybe two, and you might choose to leave some more in the future. Don’t blame anyone, we are all in this together, it just how life works. lastly, if you leave someone, leave peacefully, tell the truth, don’t cause hurt intentionally.
6 April 2018 1:51 am
The deeper is the connection, the greater is the pain.
30 May 2018 5:15 pm
How do you love when your heart is broken?
15 July 2018 1:55 am
Feeling numb comes right after you were at the peak of your pain.
24 July 2018 1:10 am
No matter how far you wanna go, no matter how much you want to escape, you can never run away from your thoughts, from people and from life. You are tied to the ground, gravity always pulls you in. you can travel to the most beautiful places in the world, but how can you enjoy if you are tied to the bad side of life.
27 July 2018 2:13 am
-So what is the best thing that happened to you today?
-It is every time I thought of you.
4 August 2018 10:35 pm
I don’t want to be a queen, queens are not free, their lives are restricted by the rules they have to follow, by the expensive clothes they have to put on, and by the expensive jewelry, they have to wear which were previously owned by other queens. For me, it is enough to be the queen in my mother’s eyes and in the eyes of my lover, but other than this I want to be free.
5 August 2018 2:41 am
You are my drug, a heavy one, I would behave insanely and irresponsibly without you, I am a broken, fragile human being. I need you to run in my blood vessels and to fill me with your soul. I want to be alive again.
18 August 2018 4:21 pm
If I tell you that I feel alone.. what are you gonna do or say.. you probably will shift into another subject or say supportive words like “you will be better someday” or even ask me “why you feel alone?” .. I don’t have reasons, I can’t list them as 1,2,3… my answer would be I don’t know.. but in fact, I know it all. it is inside of me, it is making a war inside of me that I can’t explain it in words… Maybe you just have to feel me. Not pretending that you do but to really feel me, to mean it and to show it… Look I don’t mean to put a shame on you depends on how you would behave if I tell you that I feel alone as I might behave worse if I were you…
18 August 2018 7:39 pm
And how I mean absolutely nothing to the one whom I supposed to mean the world to him.
12 September 2018 2:16 am
Have you ever feel so excited that you can’t sleep, whilst you don’t even know the reason behind your excitement.
10 Octobre 2018 7:28 pm
It is funny how we don’t pay attention to the things that are always in front of us but only we start to focus when we begin to realize.
11 Octobre 2018 1:22 am
Sitting expectations way too high or just expecting the wrong things.
10 November 2018 12:35 am
Not stronger than the circumstances.
Whatever that means. you can feel week at times.
15 November 2018 9:41 am
Dead for 3 hours only.
But again, back to life.
Life with no excitement.
24 November 2018 4:45 pm
The life I was close to living but perfection doesn’t exist.
24 November 2018 4:49 pm
I stop getting offended by the little things because it is not compared to feeling pain itself.
1 December 2018 8:07 pm
Who will bring light to the world?
Who is going to light up the corners of my soul?
9 December 2018 10:31 pm
Grateful despite the missing parts.
The End of 2018.